#NLT
25 JAN 2024
Trauma ⚠️: really just an insight into my writing process 😂😭🤣😝💜🥰🧘🏻♀️🥰😍
I’m #safe and have loved ones around if this becomes a bit dark, journaling
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#Veteran related issues (all encompassing as I’m on free flow info dump right now)
Transitioning to normal life after retirement
Menopause (really)
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Shot over
Forwardly observing her
Good affections
on target
Boom boom
Coordinates
Shot bang
Red legs
Breathe, Squeeze, Release
Splash
⁃King Follows me
Unto death I pray
Random #poet works in progress
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Uncle Sam takes #US
indentured servitude youth
Polished brass buttons
Covers of minds
Outside sanity, FREE DOM!
Exploitative Poor
Toxic waste of minds
Sign on bleached paper
Blood bought dotted line
Retirement came
Yay, maybe now some reprieve
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No longer happy with
Basic beauty and classic design
She craves her origin story
That she #recovered from
And accepted herself
Toned down
Wasting her skills
spreading over life
Adrenaline calls her once more
Can’t understand why she can’t
Be ALL she is capable of
Nor desires the quiet minded
peacefully boredom of this
Natural life of modality
Functionality less quality
She wastes away
Once you’ve swallowed #fire
Your thirst is never quenched
#Moon drenched she craves
Feminine to take over
Why can’t she be like most women?
They would love to be
Treated like a #Queen
Even for a day
But it’s not who I am
I’m a warrior
Spiritual, yes
But in my soul
Slayer of dragons.
And now
Crying 😭
Allowed myself to fall into his clutches
Because his scales
Sharpen mine
Maybe it’s karma
Lovers of dreams
Whatever it is
My soul screams
Give me back my sidearm
This isn’t the place for me
Maybe I should get out my boxes
Finally look at the awards I never cared about
Coins received
Exchanging rate seems off 🤣
soul much spent
times spent
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How much pain can one woman take?
For effects
Multiple effective ranges
Aren’t the same as
Minimum nor maximum
What was it all for
My country is now ….
—— #BREATHE 🧘🏻♀️
Born in the USA
SPRING DREAMS ( Springsteen new drop)
A baby girl grew up hearing that song
Believed in love of country
False dreams
Broken hopes
Whatever
It’s all been broken
But hey, shouldn’t be surprised
Y’all read my history on how we got here
But UPDATE some people listens
Per usual 😂
Something must directly effect others
- for most to care
Sickening shadows of souls
Brain damaged spoiled brats
….live in the USA
Wealth overcomes this country
- most don’t realize what other countries
Face…. My heart hurts
( I’m not toxic positivity)
All emotions are valid
Block, bang, yell
You think it’s my first time being
target practice for weak minded #peacock walking dorks
Man, you about to learn today 🤣
You will be put on your knees
Made to gasp for air
Beg for last breath
You will want it to end
But NOT on my watch boys.
I’m so done
Y’all want to lead my beloved country
Into embittered gross division of
Asshats and speakers
Allowing congressional staffers
To not legislate & enrage MY USA!!!
Nah. Sorry, not sorry.
This is as much my country as it is theirs.
My blood, sweetness, tears and more…
Given so you can have the right to speak
Done ✅
Y’all wanna act like words don’t hurt
Boys don’t cry
Well friend, I’ve held men as they cried
Because as a woman it was expected
To be the emotional one
While denying my own
Be their battle buddy
As you sleep with extra weapons
Women fight multiple
Enemies
Men: you’ve been warned.
If no one else will…
I’ll lead women to unite
Change the landscape of the USA again.
Cause I’ve always fought for others.
Just one more evolution, right.
Women: I love you all.
Men: Stand next to me, lead, follow or …
Whatever… you know what’s up.
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I am
19 yo troop
Carrying #Saw thru Desert
Cause I exist here
- Female Veteran on First Deployment
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You want the truth?
Modern day gladiators
Youthful bright eyed poor
Sold a lie to defend freedom
In other countries
Experienced soldiers understand
Trading portions of our lives
We know the prisms of colors
Striations of
Blood soaked earth
The howling mankind makes
Injured souls
Color slipping away
Spirit took
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May you never know that pain
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