#NLT 25 JAN 2024
Trauma ⚠️: really just an insight into my writing process 😂😭🤣😝💜🥰🧘🏻♀️🥰😍 I’m #safe and have loved ones around if this becomes a bit dark, journaling ———- #Veteran related issues (all encompassing as I’m on free flow info dump right now) Transitioning to normal life after retirement Menopause (really) ———-
Shot over Forwardly observing her Good affections on target Boom boom Coordinates Shot bang Red legs Breathe, Squeeze, Release Splash ⁃King Follows me Unto death I pray
Random #poet works in progress ——- Uncle Sam takes #US indentured servitude youth Polished brass buttons Covers of minds Outside sanity, FREE DOM! Exploitative Poor Toxic waste of minds Sign on bleached paper Blood bought dotted line
Retirement came Yay, maybe now some reprieve ——
No longer happy with Basic beauty and classic design She craves her origin story That she #recovered from And accepted herself Toned down Wasting her skills
spreading over life
Adrenaline calls her once more
Can’t understand why she can’t
Be ALL she is capable of
Nor desires the quiet minded peacefully boredom of this Natural life of modality Functionality less quality She wastes away
Once you’ve swallowed #fire Your thirst is never quenched #Moon drenched she craves Feminine to take over Why can’t she be like most women? They would love to be Treated like a #Queen Even for a day
But it’s not who I am I’m a warrior Spiritual, yes But in my soul Slayer of dragons. And now Crying 😭 Allowed myself to fall into his clutches Because his scales Sharpen mine Maybe it’s karma Lovers of dreams Whatever it is My soul screams
Give me back my sidearm This isn’t the place for me
Maybe I should get out my boxes Finally look at the awards I never cared about Coins received Exchanging rate seems off 🤣 soul much spent times spent —— How much pain can one woman take? For effects Multiple effective ranges Aren’t the same as Minimum nor maximum What was it all for My country is now ….
—— #BREATHE 🧘🏻♀️
Born in the USA SPRING DREAMS ( Springsteen new drop) A baby girl grew up hearing that song Believed in love of country False dreams Broken hopes Whatever It’s all been broken But hey, shouldn’t be surprised Y’all read my history on how we got here But UPDATE some people listens Per usual 😂 Something must directly effect others
- for most to care Sickening shadows of souls Brain damaged spoiled brats ….live in the USA Wealth overcomes this country
- most don’t realize what other countries Face…. My heart hurts ( I’m not toxic positivity) All emotions are valid Block, bang, yell
You think it’s my first time being target practice for weak minded #peacock walking dorks Man, you about to learn today 🤣 You will be put on your knees Made to gasp for air Beg for last breath You will want it to end But NOT on my watch boys. I’m so done Y’all want to lead my beloved country Into embittered gross division of Asshats and speakers Allowing congressional staffers To not legislate & enrage MY USA!!! Nah. Sorry, not sorry.
This is as much my country as it is theirs. My blood, sweetness, tears and more… Given so you can have the right to speak
Done ✅ Y’all wanna act like words don’t hurt Boys don’t cry Well friend, I’ve held men as they cried Because as a woman it was expected To be the emotional one While denying my own Be their battle buddy As you sleep with extra weapons Women fight multiple Enemies
Men: you’ve been warned. If no one else will… I’ll lead women to unite Change the landscape of the USA again. Cause I’ve always fought for others. Just one more evolution, right.
Women: I love you all. Men: Stand next to me, lead, follow or …
Whatever… you know what’s up.
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I am
19 yo troop
Carrying #Saw thru Desert
Cause I exist here
- Female Veteran on First Deployment ——-
You want the truth?
Modern day gladiators Youthful bright eyed poor Sold a lie to defend freedom In other countries Experienced soldiers understand Trading portions of our lives We know the prisms of colors Striations of Blood soaked earth The howling mankind makes Injured souls Color slipping away Spirit took ——— May you never know that pain
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