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So … turns out the Internet outage we experienced was due to the tree service damaging the cable when they cleared out the backyard.
Tech guy fixed the problem yesterday with a temporary cable and the dig crew came to bury it today… and we still have internet access. 🎉
Overall, things worked out great… it just feels like it’s been a long week. 😅
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Spent a few hours with the scribble pad and thoughts about how this month went, what I want to continue, and stop, and try out for next month.
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TL;DR - I processed a lot of fiat world stuff yesterday and this article by Ryan Holiday resonated with me: https://ryanholiday.net/please-dont-do-this-to-yourself/
LONG PART: I refer to my fiat mine days as Life 1.0 and now, after retirement, as Life 2.0.
I’ve been retire for a few years. I’ve made progress in deprogramming myself from a lot of Life 1.0 thinking and behaviors. That also means I’ve reached the point of dealing with the really ingrained stuff … like any project (art or writing) should, ultimately, end up with something to sell, and when it doesn’t, I feel guilty that I’ve “wasted my time.” I also feel anxious about starting a new project, given the assumption it has to produce something that will result in a “product” people will pay for.
I sat and worked with that for a few hours yesterday. Lots of notes and a few Kleenex. It’s a weird feeling, processing thoughts and emotions, cracking shells you didn’t realize you were living in.
End was result was clarity on 2 points …
Doing something without the end result of “something to sell” is still a work in progress for me (30 years of programming takes time and effort to undo). Nostr definitely helps with this, as I can share what I create here. Maybe I get sats; maybe not, but I believe sharing my art and writing here has a greater impact because there is so much less noise here that even a little signal like mine can reach someone and possible mean something to them. Which is why all the writing I’ve been keeping for “selling someday” will be coming out here, #nostronly, in 2025. 💜
“Waste of time” is a judgement; an evaluation determined by this inner productivity manager I have. I’ve never felt I had an “inner critic” about my art or writing, but apparently this other voice is just as demanding. I have a friend who swam with whales and drift raced down an incredible mountain road. I don’t consider those a “waste of time” - I think they are incredible experiences and I’m glad she has them. If I sit and swatch 50 watercolor paints, some could judge that it’s not as a great an experience as swimming with whales, but that’s their comparison/evaluation/judgement based on how they would use their time; that there’s something better to do. Well, “better” is another judgement. And that inner productivity manager is just another someone else; someone I don’t need to listen to any more because the rules of Life 1.0 do not apply to my Life 2.0.
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