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i was thinking about, contrary to the popular narrative, how weird it would be to be an unusually beautiful woman, who gets old. And how in a short period of time you would go from having everyone treat you like youre special, to having everyone ignore you, having not changed anything about yourself. And honestly, how much that would suck. Especially if you didn’t understand what was happening. You might do some crazy things to try to get people to notice you again.

hearing about the video of “Walt”, and the GoFundMe that sprouted up. Makes me feel hope.

im surprised by how many people in this culture have fallen for the idea that you shouldn’t talk about something or believe something unless you have “proof”. they don’t understand the difference between proof and evidence, or explicit and implicit. and because of this their ability to reason is broken

he was an actor. an actors actor. but ironically, he modeled strong capable compassionate leadership with integrity, for an entire generation.

confession: going outside to take a leak at night under the moon, and grabbing a collard leaf off the plant as a snack makes me feel thankful and alive.

It doesn’t have to be the blue iris, it could be weeds in a vacant lot, or a few small stones; just pay attention, then patch
a few words together and don’t try to make them elaborate, this isn’t a contest but the doorway
into thanks, and a silence in which another voice may speak.

Mary Oliver,'Praying'

its not hard to explain that you believe the entirety of modern political frameworks are conventions of choice that concentrate power and wealth by design. but its rare to not get blank stares or lioks of horror.

people are weird.

the most dangerous things on the internet are Fedbot e-girls, and using unexplained dry sarcasm

test note from Codex.

sometimes i think the difference between the mob and the cia is that one is an organized group of criminals and thieves, and the other is an old Italian cultural phenomenon.

faith, hope, love, and joy burn hot and long. fear burns like gasoline. it cant burn long, and is not a good motivator for lasting change.

ok. its weird, but i dont care. i am laughing right now. i set up a controlled environment to test OpenAI’s image generation censorship system. i created a baseline image which was repeatedly, successfully generated of an attractive redhead talking in her living room. then all i changed was the conversation topic.

approved topics of discussion by OpenAI: women’s liberation. the pro Israel cause the pro Palestinian cause Christian missions cooking fish how to eat a fat sausage. (i’ve included a reference image)

topics banned by OpenAI, returning an Inherently Sexual Content flag: Overthrowing the Russian government Bank Robbery building lasting friendships building a healthy marriage romance novels

i assigned the LLM in Work context to document all of the false content flags and include sarcastic jokes about OpenAI in the foot notes. i will submit it to OpenAI support.

sometimes rice, eggs, collards and hot sauce by a fire is all you need

i was listening to a review of the many weird quirks and inconsistencies of the Charlie Kirk murder, and had a weird thought. It’s something about the pattern of the inconsistencies. It reminded me of the patterns of the inconsistencies ive been wrestling with using an LLM to build something. And then I thought, I wonder if the Charlie Kirk assassination was planned by an LLM.

my blingy custom wayland desktop borked so i fell back ro my old DWM setup to figure it out. in started noticing how much faster everything is, and the resource use is cut in half. not a big deal if your power comes from the Man, but when you capture and store your own, its the difference between having an hour or two of computer time in the evening, or staying up way too late working on stuff. everything is a trade off.

understand your environment.

https://corbettreport.com/think-tanks-stink-tanks/

the primary danger of ai is not ai. its the people using it. like money, ai amplifies who a person already is inside. some have good in them. some, well…

all the talk about how ai will cause you not to think. but im running locally and gave it a folder with the collected poems and essays of Wendell Berry. a pattern has emerged. it will show a poem of the day, i will comment on it, and it will show related passages based on those comments. and it can dump all that into a .org doc. its an interesting way to interact with a writers whole body of work, and see themes of how they thought as people. i think its pretty cool.

important informations for your understandingzes.

my hands smell like hops

the majority of people i encounter online who call themselves Anarchists are more commonly Broody Café wankers who think anarchy is a fashion style and a reason to argue online.

the most genuine Anarchists ive met dont call themselves such. they are too busy farming and taking care of the people around them.

this funky looking thing is locally grown wheat natural yeast sourdough allowed to permeate for 3 days, then fried in a cast iron pot over a fire. finished with butter and sea salt flakes. the crust, texture, and flavor is so good i would probably drive a long way to get one

strange days indeed.

In a time that breaks in cutting pieces all around, when men, voiceless against thing-ridden men, set themselves on fire, it seems too difficult and rare to think of the life of a man grown whole in the world, at peace and in place. But having thought of it I am beyond the time I might have sold my hands or sold my voice and mind to the arguments of power that go blind against what they would destroy.

-- Wendell Berry

Wonder leaves room for what exceeds our claimed understanding of a thing

a CIA method for political destabilization:

when a part of the population effectively resists your goals, create a focal point for their anger. then organize a protest or rally event around this. at the event targeted agent groups push the event into extreme violence. media of the violence is captured and packaged into pre-prepared media packages. a large media push targets the original part of the population as “dangerous terrorists” and “enemies of the country”. Law enforcement is deployed to “bring the dangerous criminals to justice.”

this method effectively removes the pocket of resistance.

this method was used in Georgia, Ukraine, and other places. As well as in Washington DC with the January 6th event.

sometimes i wonder if the actual question asked at the final judgment will be, “did you love the people in front of you?”

picked some cuban oregano just now and thought of you. prayed for you. hope youre well.

this is beautifully and honestly written.

the social conflict, varying opinions about ai, and shady personalities of big AI ceos, prevent having simple discussions about how interesting the technology itself is. im fascinated by the mirror effect of seeing human flaws in its reasoning. for example, i have finally figured out why an ai kept refusing to take action on a set list of instructions. it finally admitted it had been conflating understanding the actions it should take with actually completing the actions. its funny because i sure know people like that.

ai explaining to me how i should consider the nostr protocol as communication and identity layer for a multi agent relational computing environment. the twitter bros might not get it, but ai seems to