There Is So Much Noise... I Can't Think Straight...

I've been experiencing a bit of writer's block recently, which is somewhat strange because it's about topics I genuinely want to write about. In a way, I have so many different ideas that I want to express, I can't pin them down, leading to writing nothing at all.

It's funny because, for me, Nostr was that place where I could say anything. It didn't matter whether people hated or loved it. But now, I feel this daunting responsibility to share highly impactful words that can't be easily criticized by haters or lovers. It's as if suddenly, Nostr isn't my safe place anymore; it's become my serious place.

If, when reading this, you think it sounds as ridiculous as I feel, trust me, I won't take any offense. I am pushing myself here just by writing it down. The reason I'm writing this on a blog is due to this daunting feeling of needing perfection, which I like to call the 'traditional social media effect.'

The Traditional Social Media Effect

Definitely not a medical term or diagnosis, but I am now self-diagnosed with it, and well, "delulu makes trululu."

If you hang out long enough on Nostr, you'll start noticing some traditional social media patterns that freak me out. And because they freak me out, I feel the need to write them out, perhaps to leave them behind.

Everyone is now fighting over something, and whoever is the loudest will win the 'shitposter' award. And I love shitposting... but there's no need to disparage others' projects to ensure mine is the best.

Everyone is begging for attention. Guys, there's no algorithm; there is a high chance absolutely no one will read this, and that's okay with me. I am just creating this blog because I have things I want to get off my chest, and because

is hosting a cool contest that I just want to contribute to.

And the last part, everyone is begging for an easy fix. An easy fix that will get them zaps, an easy fix that will get them followers, an easy fix that will make them the next Nostr superstar, and solve all their life's issues.

This is just sad. What happened to PoW?

Yes, This Is about PoW!

I came into Nostr because I am a Bitcoiner, and I love complicated stuff that requires hours of my time, for me to barely understand anything, and then look at the rest of the world like, "Ha! You losers don't know what I know..."

Therefore, Nostr is not for anyone who is lazy... or at least it wasn't. It required effort; videos had to be carefully crafted to go viral and get zaps.

Actually, even e-girl content isn't top-notch anymore. A bunch of AI-generated fake content is getting more zaps than

's feet on #footstr.

Actually, these are the last feet to make it on Footstr, and they are from Walker, back in August...

We are lacking that good feet content.

Is She Going to Stop Ranting or Explain This Effect Thing?

Okay, here I go. What I mean is that it seems to me that we are here looking for something different, but wanting that same dopamine hit Instagram and Twitter gave us.

Where am I going with this? Well, I just wanted to post on Nostr because it made me happy. I just wanted to come here and say whatever silly thing came to mind.

But now, I just see a bunch of posts of people either fighting over which federation is going to fix layers and lighting or the latest e-beggar. And these beggars are seeking everything from attention to zaps, no limits or questions asked. Just "look at my sad face, fix my life please."

And these things are not PoW. PoW is about creating the best new federation, and I believe you did, just work on it and show it. Don't waste your time disparaging the other one.

You want a life change, a path change? Instead of coming here to complain, ask for advice, ask questions, look for a mentor.

STOP WHINING! Okay, I was trying that writing in caps thing to seem angry and badass. But now I just feel cringe...

This Was It, This Was the Rant...

I usually don't say anything because if I'm as annoyed as I am about the way feeds are starting to look, I think I will produce that same feeling in everyone else.

I've said it hundreds of times: the cool thing is that I choose what I want to see. And that's how I plan to fix this writer's block and get back to being more hands-on... back to building the Nostr I want to see!

I want to stop feeling the need to drop the most perfect note, and to do so, I am pushing myself to do a 30-day photography challenge.

I won't win anything, and if you want to join me, the prize is also absolutely nothing.

Why photography? Well, because I suck at it. I have no idea how to do it; I just started asking for help, and everyone loves to critique the composition of "art"... and I doubt anyone will call my terrible photography skills art... so I'm putting myself out there to be critiqued.

My 30-day challenge, starting today, will include daily reminders to take a picture of whatever I can, and an explanation of what I was trying to achieve.

It will also come eventually with more blogs and vlogs, with less ranting and more building. The world is just starting... at least that's how it feels to me.

We are so early...

But for real, it is early... and that is why there's a lot we can do. And also why for real "There Is So Much Noise... I Can't Think Straight..."

So, join me or don't, in this challenge or just be challenged to put out there a better version of the things you see that bother you.

I think I sometimes feel angry and tired, but before I resort to running off to the woods and becoming a hermit, I'm going to stay hopeful and try to give to the world what I want the world to give me.

And yeah, that's it... This was the whole rant. I was just being louder so I could start thinking again.

If you are here and you've read the whole thing, thank you; you are truly resilient! I'm sure not even my mom made it all the way here (but just in case: Hi mom! I love you 🫶🏽).

With this, I say goodbye... going to try that photography thing and be back with another note in a bit!

Marce 💜